Sunday, April 25, 2010

Desert Screen


Scorching dust, rambling kite
wandering about in the sandy lawn
life streamless, splashes and flows...
caper, giggle, youthful chatter
echoing...
Silence shriek
reverberate in the spotless walls
time ticks,ticks
every moment breded
parting off, of the wilted leaves
from the old eucalyptus hanger
Green, yellow, and then the golden slumber
death reposes
greenery unfound, sore fingers trace
the spade
stretching its arms
creates life in a decomposed loam

Spill the mud
Spread it, feel it with the turf
Now,
the earth thickens in me.

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p.b

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Mandvi trip...a new window to Kutch




It was past midnight. Feet clothed, bags packed and excitement at its pinnacle, we headed for Kutch. Obviously, call of the belly and not the general honey mooners’…ready for a break. It was known, things were piling up in the north western part of the country. Thus the unplanned trip: Last trip, it was Bhuj and the adjacent villages in their raw best. This year the ships would be available to the lenses. A wide port, fisher folks, remains of fort strewn here &there. This time I would return home carrying a different Kutch. This time I also knew it would call for rating the Mandvi beach, every visitor spoke highly of. As my other half was busy collecting info. My Lenses were occupied hunting pictures which were testimonials for the place.

Nevertheless, feet propelled. 44 degree could be fought. Or probably, seven years camping made us camels, skirting away roads for ourselves& getting decolored...wonder, how people can become chain tea sippers in this part of the land!

During the daytime, meeting up people, getting down to the rural lots kept us knocking about. In the evening, it was beach-time. And yes, we still had couple of meetings lined up in the late evening, this one was a stolen bit!


MANDVI BEACH, KUTCH


Enter Mandvi beach. Windmill, camel ride, horse ride, shitty(-of camels& horses) beach welcomed us. Caving in through the sands as we got closer to the sea, we were left with dismay. The sea was her roarous self, obese as I may call her, almost attacking. And thus we were left just comparing. Porbandar, Dwarka, Somnath shores had pleasant appearances: left us pacified. As my other half managed taking a horse ride while I caught up with few regulars. It wasn’t too long as we headed back for our hotel. There never held an inclination to walk past and luxuriate in a silent walk across the shore.


2/10 the beach scored, that too propped up for the windmills.


THE ROUGH SEA


As we were entering our room someone informed us about the Vijay Vilaas Palace. Now, would I not nag? Well, the next morn, we were prepared to gallop our ways. The natives said this was the set for couple of bollywood movies, famous being the Bhansali’s 'Hum dil de chuke sanam'…







THE DEEP SHRUBBY FOREST @VVP

An hour drive from the lodging area, after a diverted route taken, we knew we were in for complaisant views. Darting our ways we just reached an unscrupulous gate and were about to enquire when two Nilgais greeted us. Not just that one of them followed me! It left us all astounded for its human-friendly move. We were directed to head towards the northern passage and so we did. Round and round and merry go round, kutcha road led us not to the palace but to a place which had a private beach. Rs.100, just to enter the beach. And the tents! Voila!-a jolly good escapade: far from the madding crowd. But we had to race through our day.

THE TENTS


Now the real hunt for the palace began. Desert jungles though short seemed pretty scary, as in every lane there were three more directions. Guess what- we had finally gotten lost. Not a single living soul to lead us. Our driver had smiles. Having fought for time not seen, we somehow managed to reach the same gate. Half a day lost in hide and seek. It was only then when somewhere from the dark shrubs a pastoral lad made public appearance that got us racing towards the grand den. And then…

It was worth fighting our way in.


VIJAY VILAAS PALACE


THE DOME FACING THE SEA


He stood majestic holding the honour, the pride welcoming
the puny mortals us. The sprawling structure left us in awe. Silent. Contemplating. Appreciating…

The walls, the Bengal domes, the ventilators, the wide garden…never felt the need of technology! Cool air greeted the admirants. A palace with visitors few, deserves immemorial admiration. Well maintained, well placed, shrewd shrubby forests, labyrinthical tracks, one hell of an experience to reach.

On our way back, again few interesting sights kept us alert. It was the midnight scene and the highways buzzing with activity. A Ship has just docked with a consignment of woods. Huge trucks loaded with gigantic trunks of trees. Shipped into the Indian port, it was an interesting sight for sure. 102 trucks carried these trunks which made us contemplate perhaps an entire forest was uprooted to serve our desires. Human needs grow: greed grows exponentially. There was couple of other trucks which had used clothes to meet the demand of “phorein kapda” in this ever expanding dumping yard of the first world countries. The poor still die in need and just handful of NGO’s fight tough. Rest: make mullah. Period.

It was post dawn now. Unlike in the east, the sun rises late here. With the sounds of the busy shore waving, sleep blanketed us in no time.


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p.db 07.04.x

Monday, September 21, 2009

My head rests

My head rests
On your ocean-deep breast
Stir up not
Your hands on mine
Knit a world woolen
return to this homeland
Oh wanderer!
When seeds garnered.
The guitar mewls silent
Cords left incorrupt
Music curl up on your lips
Let it have a voice
As our lips cloak.
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mist





Earth hasn’t clayed
A maternal visit, pending.
It hasn’t poured…
Love
body lay uncarpeted
wrinkles tentacle
all over. The fort thus winds down,
Breeding age-old pain
spurting blood into a lifeless soil
The cropland left ungrazed
tiller leaves
spilling his daylong sweat
Dust clouds on the endless route
The village thus sinks in the coat of an unflavored mist.
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(p.b)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

in your eyes


in your eyes
the range of desert seen
footprints
abbreviating
drops of brume wait
in hiding
on the corners
hope
of an oasis
unveiled.

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Saturday, July 25, 2009

piercing eyes

Sinned
we must have
a hundredth time

For today

Our heads
hang high
daddied in the arms of trial and error.

Solemn, piercing eyes
no longer bowl dream
our feet ground now

In bushy neck of the woods

Clipped off pinions
no longer play with the wind
the smiles curled up somewhere

Posterity shifted out
at the ring of the bell
untold scene spell.

Its just the rapier passage
Connecting me to a smog-veiled sky,
emotion no longer invested.
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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

one spell


Cherra dries her hair
in the mist cover tillage
nippy wind waves past
almost tearing apart
the meat of your ears, exposed.
your feet stay afloat in the cotton cloud.
inundated Bangladesh flags from across
rains beat out the toweled thought.

Gujarat shrubs armspread eye above
in the unliquored state
whirling warm wind
strands of hay whiff out
dust eclipse your way.
One spell

and the dry well of tears
surfacebrim
lashes rhythmically flutter
lips lacerate s
sky and earth arm clasped rejoice
a split
none wish to make a choice.
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Friday, July 10, 2009

a dusky eve


The sweet wind of the monsoon laced dusky eve
the falling sun shading the leave
candlenight romance
breeds
Smile
no longer is dry.
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Thursday, July 9, 2009

Preamble

over a cup of coffee
thick…piping hot
up to the brim
the liquid strolled
lips cut in two, teeth made public
tongue stir
Graffiti in the tee
scribbling in the paper napkin
preamble cackles
your long finger inspirit,
an otherwise dopey restaurant
juices up to life.

Days, those have left long ago 
swabbed in your finger tip.
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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Desert stretch

86.80% she scored in her PTC final exam( Primary Teachers' Training College), 6th rank in the district. A brave woman, must say. 6 animals pounced on her nonchalantly day in and day out. They were her professors. She is too strong to have crawled and found her way out.
Today she walks with pride. As she puts it, with voice, not choked: “my native had earned a blot, I wiped it off”. Her voice heard, my tears couldn’t be held back. Patan no longer remains the famous hub for weaving Patola.

Sorry state we live in. It hasn’t as yet rained here in Ahmedabad. Accursed land, by Joe!
This weekend I had taken my “aunties” who have mewed down considerably for an interesting trip around their own native land. Most of them hadn’t seen the places visited. Full on trip. The girls were never out alone. Independence and responsibility made them women. It was great to witness the baby step.

Our first stop was Step well of Adalaj, which compelled me to take an hour extra to complete my individual work. An artistic manifestation of ones creative thought. You could see the fingers laying out designs on every corner of the well. Sadly though, the well was brimming with filth all over, kurkure packets floating. Dead bats, remains of birds and then a drunkard following us. It all began from hereon.

Lothal again took all of them to a different height. They got to hear all that they had learnt in texts. They got to see all that the books showed. But now live. The sun above wasn’t leaving us alone. The dockyard ones blue had become earthy. We returned tanned!

Tired till the throat…we sought for a decent restaurant and had real great fun with my favored ones. Sarkhej Roza- the next stop. A sprawling mosque with visitors crawling all over. Sunday siesta!

Mr. Kadri guided the students with his inputs while I got hooked on to the display of another great artistic manifestation.

Alas! The reservoir, that had ones migratory birds as guests had become a grazing land! Desert stretch. This year no pouring Ma’am-, said a young fellow as I exclaimed aloud. We couldn’t save it! Disheartened we boarded our vehicle. Modi became a hot topic. There were more 'I’s' in support. Before the fight could bring in trouble for us, I intervened and suggested them to take over a project to save Sabarmati which has gone Kareena way, my poetry “Sabreena” would be able to narrate what I exactly wanted. Sidi Saeed Mosque revisited only to capture few pictures which were not very different from what the world has already seen.
                                                                      
                                                                    Sabreena

Hunched up between
the dividing brothers
silently rubbernecking,
my fate-engineered.
once a baggy Ghat
with newly-wedded brides
leaving their dreams afloat
the diyas had love tales
drafted.
Performing rites
on my reef
the priests have past their primes.
Many crowned heads
have strolled past, hand-in-hand
with their paramours
brought moon on their foreheads,
and lit candles on those eyes.
The serpentine alleys have taken me
and built teensy castles.
The tall building now
becloud me.
while I
with time
not sinking into the sands
but fermenting
in my today,
see- dry flowers, incense sticks, ashes
road-rolled by plastic sheen
giving me
a size zero.
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(N.B:Rivers across the world are forced to go Kareena way, Sabarmati no exception!)

The second last stop. We were drained out. Rani nu haziro: a total disastrous visit. Amid a number of retail shops, the location had to be hunted for. The structure was no less attractive but it has become a shelter for the squatters. A huge lock at the entrance welcomed us. Cots, hanging clothes, utensils in the courtyard. A huge opening in one of the ventilated walls let my camera buzz in. There laid down a number of tombs locked up, covered with never turned shroud. Aghast! History here is a waste of space.

The other side of the glamorous expanse, Ahmedabad has far more to show than what meets the eye. The sleety lanes on the other side of the bridges, which the natives address as the old city has fables screaming aloud as you zoom past. Years needed to work on them. My eyes captured the rejection.

Wheels turn, pollution inhaled, bridges crossed. Patang Hotel guards. My girls could sniff the familiarity, the all pervasive difference between the past and the present. I want to go back, announced one of them. It was difficult for most of them to relate to what they were seeing now from their windows. A long day left behind.

Their teacher wiping away the sweat. Smile plastered, thoughts rambled on the temple.
My girls had become sensitive. Penetrating my stiffled lungs, an impossible prayer of her presence amongst my girls escaped in the gushing dust...

We were approaching Science City…




Friday, June 26, 2009

Aegis



A child in arm

nestling, for aegis

A man

bedding upon the home

draws a circle on the forehead

a line penciled, and then trots past

the woman-body moves

not beyond.

Tulsi plant tentacles

shading, hiding, patiently lending ears

Rangoli colors romance

the soul poured out in the courtyard,

as fingers snaked through.

stampede

outside the corridor, overheard

eyes wake

her long coiffure unknot,

gravid shoulder rises.



The slippers left the noise out



the door bolted behind.

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p.b

n.b – the home becomes the centre point for every woman while the man sneaks out nonchalantly. She has the house to decorate, the babies to feed, none but to listen to her. Tulsi(line9): a herb; Rangoli(line 11): powder painting.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

weekend shots




Waiting for Godot: Hope someday it’ll rain. In fact it seemed that nature was playing prank with us. So be it.
Last Sunday, out of no where, an opportunity dropped into my palm. I clutched it. A visit to Surat. Well, heard of the place quite a lot. And diamond city couldn’t be missed. Though the visit was purely professional, unprofessionally I clung onto my hubby’s sleeves. So, extra luggage packed and the journey began at midnight. We were waiting for the lensman to join us at Jamalpur Darwaja (one of the 12 gates once adorned the walled city of Ahmedabad), when Mother Nature roared, causing tree-felling in some parts, thunderstorm and the shower. Wait, I didn’t to hop out of the vehicle and there I was wetting my soul. Our journey thus blessed. Throughout in the dark, droplets and lightning made it a memorable night trip.
Morning yawned in Surat. Unlike Ahmedabad, Surat appeared traffic disciplined. The famous over bridges were a treat to my lenses. Drive, was a roller-coaster... Baby thrill zoomed. On one hand the political atmosphere in Surat was pulsating; on the other I was there with a childish wallop.

Surat came calling when a minor girl was gang raped and videographed by three animals post dawn. Now, that’s nothing new. 6 such cases are registered all over the country everyday. Most go unreported! This particular case forced every media man to be in their toes. The beasts were Muslims and had cop fathers. Voila! A perfect concoction to raise the bigoted religious war cries. 2002 is after all only seven years away… A leading Gujarati daily took the predicted lines to scream “Muslim Youths raped a girl,” in its front page headline.



Rumour mills began wheeling. Stories of the girl killing herself flew around. What next? If this had a grain of truth, riot was in the making. Adhering to the tradition, a local news channel ran breaking news of the victim’s suicide, until the family came up to clear the air.


But one thing for certain, unless you have the administration backing you, you can’t cook a riot. So it was peace time… People were out for shopping, chatting, malls wide open…all the hopes of seeing Surat shutting down vaporized in the sweltering heat. The busy Bhagal bazaar with its fruits, vegetables laden market spread out for our cameras. We obliged all of them. There was thin air of unevenness, yet things just seemed to flow...

But look how an issue can trigger off violence and hatred. This was my first hand experience. In Shillong too we have gone through strikes and endless curfews, tensions and unease silence but this certainly had a different smell. My hubby kept on coaching me not to react, to stay calm while trapped in any kind of ifs. But there was a time when the unconfirmed news of the suicidal attempt reached. The woman in me just couldn’t help choking.

Some say its for power, some call it perversion, but forcing oneself on any woman is just not done… not done…. To score brownie points on a rape…? Well, Bapu must have been proud of his kids now.
Billy Graham had said which was shared with equal gusto by our own Indian author Khushwant Singh: “I think when a person is found guilty of rape, he should be castrated. That would stop him pretty quick.” I was informed while on our return journey that the animals were just two steps from where we had been. It was not leaked to me for my sudden explosions. Bobitting! Not a bad idea.
For the raped one, its either silence with the soul wounded or a lifelong journey through ever questioning eyes… did they..? were you..? was it..? how..?Yesterday a national news channel asked another gang rape victim from Delhi to describe “the course of events” on camera… TRP certainly soared. Waiting for the day when journalists ask the victims how much of fun was “the incident…”
Sigh.
Short of homicide, rape is the ultimate violation of self”-Byron R.White.
Surat seen. Diamonds lost the glitter. Thank god the event lost its spark too…
p.b

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

silence breeds...


On my way back from college, a thought rattled me. Was I being correct when I asked my students to be pokerfaced? Pre-graduate students and life to them is to chatter out all that is in their heart. Having nick named them “aunties”, continuous quacking is something I am getting accustomed to. Surprisingly though, within seconds they change their color! Tears and laughter fill in the classroom. Youthfulness relived.
 Hills everywhere put on the same look: fog followed by sunshine. That’s a thing you grow up with. If of course, you grew up in hills.
Amid the roar of the vegetable vendors, indecent cry of the horns, meandering thoughts seem to waver away. The thought, that all that you say is being marked and getting imprinted in someone’s used diary, the teacher in me shudders with fear. Hurting someone cannot be just a jest. Most practice. Scary!! Isn’t it? But then one needs to get used to it, when in a city.
 Frames get larger with experiences as we grow old. In the process we do get hurt, limp and begin to walk. That’s what we do. To our young ones, how does it suit when we are approached with queries we shoo them, saying poor you, know nothing! Many have done so.
Angularity is the prerogative of success.
Gujarat, through my bespectacled eyes is an overgrown village draped in a bollywoodic nine yards. It proudly exhibits its libertine face in malls, plazas and high-rises. Make way for yourself in the crowd and your drapings would be touched, the price would be asked. Your salary interests everyone! And mind you these are NOT personal questions here. Did we hear somebody scream privacy? Which bird is that???  So welcome yourself to the Global Indian village.
Greeting people is again one of its kinds. Utter your gods name, you are done! The lips hardly part otherwise. Access denied.  The smile vanishes ones you say or do otherwise.
Question faith and you are on your way to be the next Christ at least halfway to the Cross. Thank God nails are expensive. Well, everyone is happy to swim about in this shallow pool. Everyone is invited. Vasudhaiba Kutumbakam.. here every story ends in khadu peedu ane maja kidu (ate drank and made merry).
Look around in the most crowded corner in any road here. There has to be a food-court. Look at the man attracting all the attention, he must be a share dealer.
Food, share market, green notes…these knock out the natives.
From Harshad Mehta to Ashok Jadeja. The journey never ends. Meet the Visa Consultants. The most worshipped deities, fuelling prayers far fervent than Jadeja could ever do. English speaking coaching centers beget them. After all, speaking English lets you to be powerful. Dinosaurs Sanskrit is fossilized only to be flaunted ones in a while like a Paleolithic war tool. After all, none of the ancient languages are spoken in Pizza Hut or Café Coffee Day (CCD).
 When Ahmedabad came calling, hopes to venture out with my dream seemed fulfilling. First step to a classroom, I had to rest myself! Graduates, under graduates were mouth-shut. They had no idea about their country but aspired to take off to overseas countries! Peacock becomes the favorite animal! Thank God, buffalos haven’t flown as of now. Not as yet…
I knew I was in for more surprises than I had ever assumed. Subtracting my personal growth, I had to just encircle the pay day, collect my cheque and dissolve into the crowd-polluted city street.
Running against the tide continues…
Friends. Family. Call out. Facing same question day in and day out-when would we be back?
Fearing to pass on the dilemma and not so good experience of fazing off in a shell, silence breeds in the shelter of my body, the soul encaged.
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p.b

Monday, June 1, 2009

kaala ratri


Kaal raatri,maha raatri, moharatrischa daruna…
Pulsates in my heart. MAHALAYA ploughs the soil of my soul. My wings unfurl and glide me towards my homeland. The greenery, the splashing sound of Sati falls, the silent walks across Ghora lane. Pure. Romance. Gardened by budded love.
The term kaala raatri made understood now. Its been pretty out stretched.
Heat beats the hell out of you. And this time bracketing aside north east, everywhere else in the country sun God is dispensing his wrath. Clouds are on a blissful summer break. Wonder when the vacation would be over!
I have always understood one thing about the place I live in. It is a star-crossed land. Even the rain God isn’t too sure to step in. (The state-head claims otherwise though).  Very few are chosen to perish.
We drip our sweat irrigating our lives.
Have seen and understood a lot in the 3 scores breathing period. Difficult it seemed to explain why I was a meander. Cradled in the whirlpool of thoughts: Always. Every pujo (Durga Puja-popular amongst Bengalis), the smell of the cold breeze just missed. While in the parental threshold, visiting pandals impregnated claustrophobia. Now: Well, there is just a pandal to rush to. And. I don’t feel like returning home. I love the crowd! So much has changed.
2 months prior to pujo, Bengali families would begin their shopping, just like one does before Christmas. Planning, listing out, checking out on the wallet. I did it too. Shopping spree par se was a festival before the actual three day long pujo. Display of the things bought a ritual. The chill in the air just hinted the sounds of dhaak (the drum). There was an unexplained feel of the autumn. A welcome song reverberated from the pinetops to greet mother Durga. Something smelt good. The feel. So strong.
Growing up in a vibrant locality, pujo greeted any &every one with gusto. There was this sweet smile that Maa brought along as she landed in the pandal. Friends popped out of nowhere and everywhere. Love resonated. Dhaak tintinnabulating across. An atheist too would rise up and take a step or two towards the pandal. Maa is here to visit her parents. Look at her well- coached children accompanying her.
Half a decade and a year passed. Dhak pulsates in mind now. No arati. Just a brief darshan. Clay idol. Glitterati overhauls. Munching mouth overcrowd. One doesn’t need to cook at home. Fish, chicken, egg-whatever: please order. Professional networking… a little business; pure fun of course. The fervor mashed under feet as one strolls across eyeing eateries and salivating on decked up youngies. Maa no longer seen.
Heavy heart.
Pujo ends amid everyday work. I just hold my husband, cushion my heavy heart on his. Next day back to work.  Just me and him.
We inhale. Amdabad(the natives like it this way!) air helps us cancel another day.
Every ambitious youth from every next door have left their threshold. Standing on the platform, waving at their childhood days, pain must have clouded them too.  The ever-running metro life shaving off nostalgia. Call of the belly. Remember?
 Somewhere, someone had said- ‘things get better once you give in.’
 As of now the words put to use as a good quote.

p.b